When I came back out of the Music building after finding out that I didn't make it to Smile and Nod [Cal Poly SLO's improv comedy group], it got me thinking. People kept telling me that I should audition for an improv team, and I did a lot of funny videos with Aaron Chen, so it really got to my head. You can't be cocky at something. Not when you think you've become an expert, not ever. Because chances are, there's probably thousands of people out there who are better at you than what you do. In my case, it was about 20 ppl who tried out for the team. And I guess at least four people were funnier than I was, because thats the number of people who made it. I came in with this ultimate scrubs-baratsandbereta-derrickcomedy mentality thinking that I could nail this and be funnier than anyone else, but it ended up with me getting slapped in the face by everyone else.

I also went to my friend Anthony's dorm today [ this guy from my Week of Welcome group] to play some music, thinking that I was a decent guitar player, but the same thing happened: I couldn't even keep up with him. His solos, improvisation, and tasteful tone changes just blew my sheet music skills away.

Two of my passions were shattered in one day.

I guess that in the end, all that really matters is that you love what you're doing. Bryan Wei told me today that you dont have to be the best at what you love, because doing it is all that matters. But I think the one thing I realized today that I should've realized a long time ago is that.....i don't practice what i love enough. I thought I was on top of comedy, but I haven't done any funny videos all summer. Vince said I'm not funny, to begin with. I guess its somewhat true. I thought I was an awesome guitarist, but I didn't practice that all summer either. Better yet, I didn't even know that much guitar technique to begin with. So starting today, instead of just knowing what I need to do to make myself better at the things I do, I need to practice. I'm going to practice music and acting a lot more thoroughly this time around. And maybe, just maybe when time rolls around next quarter, I'll be a part of Smile and Nod. And an amazing guitarist.

"Knowing is not enough, we must apply. Willing is not enough, we must do."- Bruce Lee

well, here I am 2 more weeks and im outta here. im not gonna reflect on everything i did this past summer, cause that would take too long. last week was hella fun though

newport adventure when bryan got back- never forget. possibly the funniest day of my life since chinese school lol...you know when you get only 2 hours of sleep everything just seems funny? when we got to newport, it started off as a plan to go fishing at this spot that my dad and uncle would always show me. even though we werent able to find that spot after an hour, im kinda glad we didnt cause what ensued was the funniest day ever-funny enough to awaken my nearly dead blog. it all started off when we were in the car....crazy daft punk kareoke lol
we went hopping on the rocks, which proved my good ol' friends, vince, bryan, and lyon [who ive known since 6th grade, bryan since kinder, God bless them] to be fun. something REALLY funny happened, but im no at liberty to say it lol after we got back, we went on the dirty beach, took off our shoes, placed them above the shore, then had a contest to see who can bury their feet the deepest. before we knew it, the tide rised and when we looked back ALL OUR SHOES GOT OWNED BY THE HIGH TIDE. LOL all of them just drifted away so we all headed to fashion island WITHOUT any change of clothes and each bought ourselves new sandles and shoes. stupid expensive food court. a lot more happened, but im too lazy to put it all down. but we talked about scrubs a lot and laughed at funny moments. after the newport chronicles was over, we all went home to shower and nap, then went out again to watch superbad, which REALLY made this an even funnier day. lol mclovin. cant forget cheesecake factory too, that food is BOMB. it all tastes like it made from scratch...no bullcrap. also really funny day...bustin chops on EVERYONE lol i guess you can say we laughed our way into six packs hahaha

work at raging waters- bad experience. eddie and i hated it. dont even wanna talk about the whore-ish surroundings.

i went to church more often this summer alone than my entire life, and i must say, i regret going more often. i just feel fulfilled every time i go, and i really like the people there. theyre all open, honest, real, and nice. i hope that when i move to SLO i'll be able to attend church as often as i did this summer.

i have one last thing to say. im really gonna miss my family..its rare to have one this good. i really do have an amazing family and i am truly grateful for it. i'd also like to say that, through all the pain i've been through, struggling, my friends were always there for me. im really glad to have you guys as friends. you know who you are. i really am.